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·WITHERED MEMORIES
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THE RENIINISCENCES OF MEDICAL LIFE
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·THE AUTHOR'S NOTE. The following essays were irritten for the G. JI C. Magy zine to entertain and amule my young medial friends, in the inidst of their labours and multifarious duties, and as a relief in the more senou, profession contributions with which the little journal io crer so fall At the request of the publisher, they have been collected in the present olume with a view to scruc my fellow students as a remembrance of the busy period of tive scars, no full of varic exponence and activities, with many a hope and joy, an gets and can, when they have gone back into the wider world to take up the responsible duties of life, for who will not look back, through the years, to bis carly College life, and pluch one by onc, mith the softest yearning, meniones, withered and ſaint, from the dim forgetfulness of time Thanks are duc to my frend and fellow student, Mr K N. hul-lr eshtba for the interest and care with which he bas looked oser the proofs I cannot close without a word of remembrance to my old muster, the late Br J S Gloria, to wbom i one my urly education, and who moulded the youthful mind with his brun and his birch, and to Ve P. H. Sturge, MA Principi, Nizam College, orlo tu gasen to me all that I have, in knowledge, and in cultur, and for mliose patronage, and Lindly sympathy, I am eser omteful. Bus Mota LAL Friday, 211) August, 1917.

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·FOREWORD In thesc bright little cesays of medical student life in Bombny, 1 am glad to note that the enter has not been content, unlike the nicrage student, to confine limself within the narrow limits of the merely technical side of his professional studies Hc has apparently during the five years of his apprenticeship respondel fulls to the plentiful opportumties afforded him of uning a wider human outlook and experience, which, in the course of my address to the Students of the Grant Medical College last serr, I defined as an essential inoral equipment to a healer of bodily suffering In these pages I find certain qualities, which, in due time, troperly fostered must serve to enrich the young author both as nın anl physician--quick power of observation, a keen and sensitive power of sytopathy, an intuition into the moods and moures, hopes and fars of stricken men and wroinen, bumour that neser malicious and pathos that 13 nerer muudlin, a picturesque fancy half plasful and half sad--all focussed in the central desire aul instinct of the true physician to serre, to succour and to heal tufenn: hunanity Saroline Naidu HYDRADID, Deccal 16th Aujutt, 1917. 7

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·CONTENTS
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Dissertation on a Dis-eclion Table
The First Impressions of Ilospital Life..
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Delicate Dreams
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Thopgbts and Recollections
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T2 Eolation of a dedica
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Sirpadle for Existence
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·WITHERED MENIORIES. A Dissertation on a Dissection Table Taleler 1 p leruleri, Lattler ruh care AN Such is the proposes and God disposes destiny of many a man who begins life in the full vs out of youth and fights his way 10 the struggle for existence Larving aside thoso born in afluent circumstances, with fortune, social ranh, and influence at their bach, the lower erala of our humanity very often present those unfortunates who work hard to earn their living with full hope and confidence only to be degraded in the social acole, in spito olkoen contest at erery step and in the end to spk into oblivion by disease and death It is out of such & section of people friendless and without a relative, who end their dsgo "anrept unhonoured and unsung, that our dissec tion halls are supplied With what hopo nnd cheer does man begin his life and very often with what a different and does bo como by Thus cach s ubjent, brought into the holl to enlightea 08 in our 1110ledge of the human constitution, oflers as food for rection That is the last place of their rest and thero they are split ap into many a fragment, with no stone or um past cristiace, escept the hnowledge they help ·2 to leave in tlo ininds of those who roservo thomsolves for tho service of humanity as doctors To holp scionce and sorvo humanity oven aftor death ; what nobler monument than that? Thore lies what was onco Konan, in otornal sicep, on marblo tablo, a piece of furnituro sho novor dreamt of, whilst alivo. lor beautifully rounded arms and wollformed hands, so usoful in tlio cough duties of her lifo and porhaps onco the prido of somo one, nro now under the seeining cruel knives which survo only to display the inner benuty of dovolopod muscles and tondons. Her moderately lain faco soinotimos considered graceful by her, bofolo a molest mirror in thio vanity of youtlı, is cold and rigid in denth, vory soon to bio doplouably disfigured but not su lidoouly as by the fenstings of the worm and thogant or by the fast consuming tonguos of flamo Picco by pioce the outlines of tho fino fontures disnppear and the perhaps oft complimonted oyes, laryo and bright, nnd the porfrct zows of tcotlı, bountifiod by the copo:tod coitings of mashi' (black onamol for tooth) would look out of pince and ugly in tlicir sockets "Teme iux, some may have madel tlx bloomuay hin, Ilire lipos racit rcow'il, per lurpes, in transport tender; Sme may han chuchil hal rus a alimyled chin, vind nour had my dloulls about ils tremdes "" What is tho name of this friendlors boing and what her past history? No one can toll or onres to know. Perhaps slio was once n tiny child in an obscuro habitation, a mother's hopo, a brother's pride. Oft fondled and cared for in the days of plenty, slic becoincs a proy to a cruel dovastation 6 ·3 1 which brings sorrow on the land and makes life a hard lot Bolder than others ind more energetic slie lest es her native village to try a livelihood in a great commercial city with all ita norey miguilicones an} braty, where many flock to earn 1 fortuno and not unoften to sink into insignificacy in its dark and cheerle borrels A factory claims her She works night and dny, ani carns perhaps enough to lose but no more Slowly her confiling and sumpla nature changes with the dard lifo she leals and coerespo dence with her people neres prolific amongst the ignorant cesses She becomes frendless forgotten and unknown With incessant tail and unshole somo lifo 1 81 Incs* coins neer her, and then disense, persisteut anl pa nul Smois furcul to lenso off her rock carries bome trmor in para and starvation and ultimately foro at lear drage horeclf to las her worried imbs zod end her days at a greit charity institution Thro Bla is tell attonded to and cured for but the fatos are already hovering sound her They thisper softly in her c309 of brighter reiling where there is no pain, 1031, and death, She coon has perinanent rest in death and oblesson Tags the dull coll marlle becomes her temporary bed Fancy dreams come auch history of her life Yonder 14 laid the body of a man har advanced in dissection He features we cannotkanirtint can so fin lopt his caste or rrer lle is only tranh nith no arm, or lege, or shin lubowels are open sol.3 is liy chest The heart lies in a placa broken sl) e it up Lora, an emotion to which be ignorint and suugh nature neier rose he neree lsen Yet the 24 almoleniert within II fins is loples and chech ·loss; and lie appears as it ycinuing moskingly at our feeblo efforts to increase the span of lifo over so littlo. A fol days more and it would disappear only to be replaced by another. From whero he came and where he is gono spirit and mattor, no one knows Thus we seo in the large airy hall, a number of bodies which once represented burly lusbourors, hardy mechaanics and keen artisans, man and wonen, a tol having a variod life with its owa stock of esporiano's unrecorded and a sopa. rate and an interesting history. But pimling some of hrunan mice, l'nhappy pass their annals ly, They worked for humanity in its rocossities and comforts, and serve to allovinto its sufferings after doath Aro thoir lives a failure and efforts unproductivo ?

·The First Impressions of Hospital life So Il/jurludea o rel Funey I al ans Tle treas rad pa ni of a thousan! scenes rhu as to plell HCV the budding medico with his moustache curled, (if he happens to posses ady) and the atetho copo peeping out becomingly from his coat pochet struts aloi; for the first time to take пр bis ner duties at the hospital ho finds himself among the asninr students one who is irretrievably higher than those of his fellows of lor degree His hair begins to rec ivo more cire, an 1 the dress better attention And well mas bo bo gell conscious Hrsing crossed that bridge of ABBM the third year, that stumbling block that has shatterd many a hops and achod many a heart ho finds himself safe nbore the raging waters an1 begins to feel confident of be coining a successful madical inun Bat this pleasant state of imind 13 of slıort duration, as are most of our J0J 8, and he soon linds himself sınırtıng under responsibility and care which tho I capital delice nto suro ts bring He 19 surrounded with mers, woo an 1 all kinds of human infirmity There aro rich and poor, high anl lor, alihe on the bed of pain All di fferences of rank position fealth, and acquirements are for guttei ani ail ber n to achnowledge themselves the common children of Gil All gloss of CITI Jizslion hatral, prido, dignity and affection aro inatinc in their suff rinis ·6 WO tively laid asido and min 18 soon in u15 truo form, E veritable child of naturo If the student bnppens to b of a 8C isitive trinqerament, luis sympathies go forth the patront in his care and this often brings on aullering Whon one morning ho finds & check in the progross of l18 caso, the buoyant hopes so nidontly formed, and the anxious desire to help to honl his first pationt, are suddonly destroyed The result is sadness, u hol lists till tho pationt pulls up again. That first prtiont is tho idol of his hoirt and for lısın no caro and thought 18 sparou If he could be cured it is a laurol in lus cap, a happy nugury for the times to co no havo all our werknesses a d this is one Then tho fear of carrying scopsis, unconsciou ly to luis patients, troubles lien for the first fow dnys at least, whilo ho 18 working thoro, and lio sparog no puing to hcop ovorything as cloan as possible. His conscience prichs him ovor after, if thoro is any nogloot on is part or in any way his cnso goes wrong, 0161] thought it lo not his fault If he fails to do properly samo prinful duty for want of courige, thoro is self reproach to taunt him for the rest of the day Then he hay to face the difficulty of roplying to blunt questions in a bu CABO and of giving consolation, when the praticno knoss tw much or fancies he does, and yet distracted with uncortainty, loshe forward to him for hopo and a favourable answer the difficulties which besct the neophyto A hospital lihe ours is genniallz utilised lng preoplo, who nre not much fipoured by fortune and those lives no praused Lxhausted by labour 111 ono hard struggle for ernsteure attached by some ſoll diecaso in the unhygionc surrounds of Such aro ·7 our over populated city or victimised by some depilish of proce i odern inachinery, they seek the great charity institution as Some aru tho only cofugo for rest and Assunging prin up Country mea, simple and child like in innocence, and even know not the kind of treatment, surgical or medical they apo to recesso even on admission to a particular ward. Their oas thought is to be rid of the disease they are suffering from and bother not their lead how it is to be removed Othere raquero whether they would feel pain while undergoing on operation, and seem to have never heard of anasthetics Thule there are others who struggle on tho aliglatest attempt at oramination Thero are some who 60 caserally notice the procelure of the particular treatment Sisen to them that the slightest alteration in it will TecT withi roinoastradco and they will not lead stabied till thio old proceeding 19 topcated in tho muautost detail Thero are set others who will not rest satisfied till a particular whun of thoirs, some imaginary d18e25e or complaint is at tended to Vons among them postens goud uutellect and Bryanul judgemont, though coining from a comparatively low Balo of society Thero aro wits too, and a casual hit or gut is very entertaining A fernalo patient sas heard saying I cin balo bread and knor its qualty, and you ( a doctor) cin nos tell me the condition of my disease." Quite homely but an spt bundle ignorance also plays an important part in their observations One huile vadergoing stotaino injection sau "most has my bach to do with piles Anottice general trutusy anong the patients, Loth inala aad fomel donat completo trust in the studint ditcasing or at ·tively laid aside and man is soon in his true form, a voritable child of naturo. If the student happens to bo of forsitive tsinporament, his sympathies go forth to the patient in his caro and this often brings on suffering. When one morning he finds a check in tho progress of liis caso, tho buoyant hopes so ardontly forined, and the anxious desira to help to heal liis first pationt, are suddonly destroyol. The result is sadness, which Insts till the patient pulls up again. That first patient is tho idol of his heart and for him no caro and thought is spared. If he could be cured, it is a laural in his cap, a happy nugury for the times to coine. Wo have all our weaknesses and this is ono. Then tho fear of carrying scopsis, unconsciously to his pationts, troubles him for the first fow dnys at least, whilo ho is working thore, and ho spares no paing to keep overything as clonn as possiblo. His conscience prioks him over after, if thoro is any nogloot on his part, or in any way his caso goes wrong, oven though it lo not his fault. If bo fnils to do properly solno painful duty for wout of courage, thoro is self-reproach to taunt him for the rest of the dny. Then he has to face the difficulty of roplying to blunt questions in n bad caso, and of giving consolation, when the patient knows too much or fancies he does, and yet distrnctod with incortninty, lozky forward to him for hopo and a favourablo answor the difficulties which besot the neophyto A hospital like ours is generally utilised by peoplo, who are not inuch favoured by fortune and whose lives aro pngsed in one hard struggle for existenc. Exlimusted by labour, or attackcd by some fell diecase in the unhygienic surroundings of Such Aro ·oy days of his forced incarceration and fondly lozking forward to back to his family and his work In their own dopartment Biro lsr 18 the state among the female3 One is quite matronly ready with her faga Advise to har juungar sisters 12 trouble There is anothor, a hyper sensitise young won 111, who do ables and trebles for sufferings by thiohing lerring, and doubting and well she may Prolonged suffering beings on loss of faith, and that des por loney and hop3le9g1439, enhanced perhaps by some domestic trouble the absence of friends and relatives or the remembrance of s baby unti nely snatched away, though all that is needful 13 done for her, and her trouble 18 nobody s fault, yet womanlile she frets and grumbles Jlost of thes sufferers who bave bɔ no their prin ith their wanted fatalionu will got well and walk out again into the sunshine and the light, pechas to onry it the more For kome nature will have her way and they will end their dny s in the place thoy cine to, in the wall hope of cure Theits i tho larul lot indeed for din ini nofort i luns a pre Thania la/ the rire pre nits , the dry I ta, lu bel ni? ni me fonil I reast the part nu, Irs lenys lle eleun ebreju me Front It then en al rects FRIR Droles lettre at pres T Gra A row of these who have noser hsil a friend or a relation will be sont to the duction all, or to the post mortem room that glamp place where to look muro liko ma, Cian9 at their ilan et res Vor us! Art Kyme .

·8 tanding on them, and his or her own baba is the bost; ho is tho kindest and tho gontlost of the lot; his is tho best hand at ouro. They would strongly romonstrato, and fool dejcotod, oven if tlo slightest attompt is mado at ohnngo. The licspital itsolf, at least in its intorior is as littlo gloomy as possible. The chequered flooring, tho painted walls, the flowor vases, and the neatnoss connectod with everything, give it a ploasant appearanco. The rows of bods have pationts of differont communitios. Thero lies tho stoic -old-world Muslim wlio discarding pain siinply utters to overy querry " Thanks be to God." By his sido is strotohod tho burly labourer indifferent to his disonso His life of hard work and harder fortune, makes his sufferings casier to bear. His cheek is pale and his brow fovorish, and his large brawny arms and tough massive musclos, whiol laughod nt tons of load and were onco his pride are now looso nnd flncoid. Hopo. that last steadfast friend, thero is nono for him, and the sphere of his joys, naver vory vido is over, The only con solntion, if thero is nny, before ho is lost in tho fast gathering shindows of death, is to look back to his youthful days in his familiar homo and hearth many a wido miles away whoro ho stood in the green fiolds of paddy sucking in tho frosh morning. nir to wolcomo the appronching dawn, boforo lo quittod thoso blessings for a possiblo gain in the gront sinoky comincrcini city. Next to him is a street beggar who fins econ botter days, before getting reducod to the prosont pitiablo conditions, through folly or through circumstancos. Still he droning of secta, puri, and halıca or sono rare vegetablo appealing to liis tasto; opposito to bim is a man of better class, counting the ·9 days of his forced incarceration and fondly lozhing forsord to go back to his family and his york In their own department similar 13 the state among the fearles One is quite matronly ready with her eaga 1189 to h r younger sisters in trouble There 13 another, a hyper sønsitive young woinan, who do ubles and trebles her sufferings by thinking fearing, and doubting and well she may Prolonged suffering brings on loss of faith, an.) that despondency an] hopelessness, enlianced perhaps by aome do nest trouble the absency of friends and relates or the remembrance of a baby untı nely snatched amay, though all that is needful 13 done for her, and her frouble is nobody s fault, yet womanlike she frets and grumbles Most of thes sulfarars who have bɔ na thair pain with their Fonteu fatalism will get well and walk out again into the sunshing and the light, perhaps to enjoy it the inore For #076 naturo will have hor vrny n11 thing sill end their days in the place thoy cimo to, in the will hopo of cure Thoita is the hard lot indecd Hur celo to nb for illussa yre The pas ans uolene er ret nel lejl the air prents ny lheck erf I la) for cantone 1 me fun? breast the part 67. I reis Imps ile close te ju rilt Tensoithim then re of nal re er s Fennoilesiat or 7 Grad A for of these who love nover had friend or relation will be got to the dissertion hull, or to the post mortem room tlnterlomy place where se look more liko mamiciang nt tloir ܐܨܝܐ ܬܝܐ ܨܕ ܐ ܕ ܐ ܕ 0 ·8 at cure tonding on them, and lus or hor own baba is tho bost, ho is the kindest and the gentlest of the lot , his is the best hund They would strongly romonstrate, and fool dejooted, even if the slightest attempt is made at change The hospital itsolf, at least in its interior is as little gloomy as possible The chequered flooring, tho puntod walls the flower vases and the neatnoss connected with everything, give it a ploasunt apposlanco The rows of bøds have patronts of different communities There lies the stoic old world Muslim who discarding pain simply uttors to overy querry "Thanks be to God' By hi8 side is strotohod tlo burly labourer indifferent to his diso988 His life of hard work and liarder fortune makes his sufferings easior to bear His chock 18 prle ind his broup feverisli, and his large brawny arms and tough massive musclos, vluch laughed at tons of load and were once his pride are now louse and fincord Hopo that last stendfast friend, thoio is nono for him, and thio sphero of his joys, never sory side is over Tho only con solation, if there is any, before he 18 lost in the fast gathering shadows of death, 18 to look back to his youthful days in luus famılınr home and hearth many a wide miles away whero lo stood in the green fiolds of paddy sucking in the frøslı morning ar to welcomo tlio approaching drwa, beforo lio quitted thosc blessings for a possible gain in the great smoky cominercial city, Next to him 18 a street begger who has econ botter days before getting reduced to the present partiallo conditions Stilt he dronms of through folly or throngh circumstances secra, purt and halıca or some rare segetiblo wpealing to his taste, opposite to him 18 a ipan of botter class, counting the ·with the pule oyed delicato banya the marble faced Jewecs clad in white scoming as if a staluc, thic meel Kho), in bright and flowing manifold coloured riments, the olivoshioned llyslun in her 'bachhin', the omnipresent Parsee, as well as the labouring woman in her primitive dress, simple und strnight furward in her speech and her complaint Then comes the inan at the helın, the surgeon or tho physician rho is the primo mover of the machinery of tho whole ward Patients nurses, students nil look up to liim, And notbing is dono bat under his direction Hois the pre atding genius, the prime judge, who geoms to decide human fates in montes In the cards he uses the most delicate judg inout mn pronouncing the disease, even thon ost baffling, and at the theatre his fingers more so deftly and with such confidence, that it inspires one, neer at the net with something of a hero worship To the sturlent of this noblest of professions, there 18 reverenco for high nowledge admiration for h18 genus and prado at his success Iſe struggles with the fates hard and long, to preverse tho span of life of Innny n sufferer, and gives many a Hopeless man a second lifo Tlio memory of train ng, and of maoy n jewels of expericnico recorved from him, the student critics with him and loves to look back upon with pride, when harang tinished his terin, ho doparts for firoft cluncs to tbo distant liome I al this willie as the hot ikot like To w' Ilusk ani of merte, (The Prologue) Chacer I Asily in our attempts to heal the body yo somolimos forget the iniportant and eabtler factor in toan, the mind, ·10 nefarious task or so many ghouls at their banquet. The fnir goddess scienco is so cold and unsentimental Sho bestows not her favours on her dovotees without such unholy offerings. Let knogledige groir from morr lo more, But more of reierence in us ocell ; Thal mind and soul, according tell, Vay make one music as Imfore, Tennyson (In Tomorian) With so much misory and death about us we can tako thojoys of life ns usual and can oven somotimes afford to crack a dismal jest. Yet such is life Wo thus gradually get accustoinei tu the familinc facos, the charge nurse issuing orders, tho junior sistors busy withi their work, the doctor sliouting at one place, and aminblo and kindly at another, and the quaint white livorioHamals, onch in himself a character. Some of tho Inttor, the pugnicious minions have a distinot touch of humouc about them. Ono boasts of his twelvo children, as if it is a grort fent to be tho sire of so many sufforing souls ; another considers himself half a surgeon and is proud of his skill in bondaging and dressing wounds A third one is not unofton soun running aftor an unwilling alissy Daba with a pot of stools. In the midwifery dopartment, gather a similar motoly combination of voinen, only inoro variod and striking in respect of dress and costumes. They belong to all ages, froin the persisting old dame to the shy young girl Thero may bo scon squating on the floor the fair Persian in bor black draperies and quuint hord dress, as if mummificd, convorsing ·with the auld eyed delicate banja the marble facer Jewess clad in white rec imng as if stalue, the week kihojn in bright and floving manifoll coloured raiments, the olivoskinned Maslım in her 'burhha', the omnipresent Parsee, as krell as the labouring woman in her primitive dress, simple and strught forward in her speech and her complaint Then comes the man at the helm, the surgeon or the physician rho is the prime mover of the machinery of the whole wand Patients, nurses, students all look up to him, and nothing is done but under his direction Ho is the pro siding genius, the prime judge, who seeips to decide human fates 10 minutes in the yards he uses the most delicate judg thent in pronouncing the diseame, even the n ost bafiling, and at the theatre his fingers more so deftly and with such confidenco, that at inspires one, nem at the art with something of a heron Torehup To the student of this noblest of professions, there 18 reverence for hishnowledge admiration for his genius and prido at his success Ilo struggles with the fates hard and long, to preverse the span of life of many a sofferer, and gives many a hopeless man a Bacond life. The memory of train ng, and of aaay a jewelr of esperience recensed from him, the student carries with him and loves to look back upon with pride, when having finished his term, he departs for far-off climes to the distant home In al this worl I ne tras tier awilulike To spr' f I husk a vlot ergerit, (The Prolonue) Chair Lastly in our attempts to beal the body to somotumes forget the important and subtler factor 10 man, the wind, ·10 nefarious task or so mnany yhouls at their banquet The fair goddess science is so cold and unsontimental Sho bestowe not hier favours on hor dovotoes without such unholy offerings Tel hnonleil je grow from more lo more Bul mire of reverence in us direll That mind and soul, accrling cell May malone music as l_fore, Tennyson (In 1/cmoratam) With so much misory and death about us we can talo tho joys of life ns usual and can ovon somolimos nfford to crach a dismal jost. Yet such is life We thus gradually got acoustoinel tu tho familiar faros, the charge nurse issuing orders, the junior sistors busy with their work, the doctor shouting at one place, and amiablo anel hindly at another, and the quart white lıvorrei Hamals, onch in himself a character. Some of tho lattor, tho pugnacious minions have a distinct toooh of humouc about thein Ono borsts of his twolvo childron, ns if it is a groot fant to be tho sire of so many sufforing souls, another considors lumgolf diali & surgeon and is proud of his shill in bandaging and dressing wounds A third one is not unoften soon running after an unwilling Missy Baba with a pot of stools In the midwifery departmont, gather a similir motoly combination of women, only moro variod and striking in respect of dress and costumes They belong to all ages, from the persisting old dame to the shy young girl Thero may be scen squating on the floor the fair Porzinu in her black dorpecies and quaint load dress, as if mummifiod, conversing ·Delicate Dreams. . Bables la tle ngit of them, babies to tle left aftlen, Butres in front of tlen, screamed and I veled " THC day was spent at the wards studying & variety of cases and fixing them in the already Over stufted brail, in poning over ponderous solumes, too bully to be rend with enso, in attending lectures apparently dull to the sleepy mund, and the greater part of the might in frequent calls at the labour ward, where yo 15818t in bringing souls to life and light, babies with coral lips and tray fingers, cold and soft, the most perfect gift of God, innocent babies with the touch of the angels still fresh on them The mind thus orer-orked was still more strained by a more than usual indulgence in the cups of gratatul tes, so dear to every medical heart, that I took to the warm comfort of the bed, not to be lost ja the deep entrancing sleep, forgetful of the distractions and turmoils of the day, but to dream and rander in thought It seamed to be morning and the 80 oft frequente. out pitiant's dapartinent was alling up fast with patients radiating from all quarters of the city Ono by me the casus vero picked up and looked over and the diagnosis mide, which to tho drearuy niad came wonder fully correct Vy fellow students seemed busy too, in a similar manner, trying to stretch the alınost Eised limb of this, eratioun the abdomen of that, or taking their brains ·12 which not only influences, but in cases is intimntoly connector with the well-being of the body. A hasty remark, n carelos word, scant attention, or an unconscious movoment may leas the sufferer in agonies of despair and hopelessness. On the other hand, gentle encouraging appearance and winning mannors may make hire happy, even though his caso bo not very hopeful. He is at least satisfied that he has found friond and is well cared for. Some of us in our onthusiasın for knowledge, unconciously forget to pay regnrd to the susceptibilities of the patient placed in our chargo, and causo him undue incon vonience, which may provo projudicial to his health. But knowledge acquired in this way, however ignorantly, is like illgotten gnin, and mothor nature which alono gavo the patient his boing and knows his deficiencies and abilities, will novor yield up her mystorios, try howovor ono may. Kindnoss and consoling words bring nbout moro ready submission, than any annount of romonstrance, Amar vincit omnia-Lovo conquers all.

·15 ܕܬܐܐ for Her only anxiety is cure for her boy There 18 nothing in the way of materazl affection, bo shynes: no false sense of Why digut; Approrch sdu ton, gentle fellor-stadent But hesitate, it is oris & pyor mother and a sofferjog child the fructure is tender and gentle ange', be gentler stil? paintai and every mosemrut it getting creputations, sends a And thou too well meaning 180g 52 tko poor little coul friend, bare your turn , paia the boy so that in times to conne, you may heal bags jew unbata Take him to the adjoining hall, there a number of little surgeous are engaged to leata ang rudiments of surgery and dres:10% caos, under the guin dance of able Aggist uato in 1073 Poining aprons, looking more geni, thin men, who seem to sit on judgement on erring mortals and give him in charge of the solitary nursa who Bits in and out of her little kingdo ng away from her kind On the table les dos perhaps still in his taens all nervous, trembling from head to foot The scalpel 19 za one hand, and all the necessary 'atrone and sponges are ready It is only a puncturo to bo moje, so triyal to the accustomed medical ere, set the fish of the little blade 18 shocking to the lay mad Dear student, bu not b at so on practising surgery Look behind, the door is ball ajet and there stands the Christian mother, old and ragged in a tattered hat, poor yet Tith a mothers heart Send her geatly away and shut the door That 13 the only ready In the spacious room opposite, tho physician 18 0020 eu in gising lestral clinics and differential diagnosis on patients lying on cots Some of them are tested as the long roomy benches, while others are squatting on the ground Who is ·14 at something beyond their comprohension. Theia advances ono and picks up at candoin some sufforing pationt, and expresses disappointmont by a sour faco and a packered oxpression, when told of somo coinmon oft-noticed diseaso, at the usual question " Kaya llota," however important it bo to tho sufferer. Thus the same porson is examined by a multitudo of cinbryo doctors, much to disgust. Go and seok another. Porhaps slie would satisly your desiro for the uncoinmon. But tho patient is hard to deal. Though in suffering and in want, she luns hier prido Uncovercil and without a burkha, no one has seen her, boyond perlinps tho thick lashes and the dark sparkling eyes Dare approach hør. Does sho not come froin the magic kingdom, thnt fuir city, the queen of the Deccan*? Has ello not beon brought up, under the very eye of the Shadi Begum, in the sanctity of the Zonana, being bought for a couplo of liundcod cu pees, in some byogone famine when the noody mother unablo to foed hec ohild, sold her to save her life and got as voll, trio much needed money to sustain herself and the rost of tho babies; and though a slave, hus she not hersolf been a potty autocrat of tho harem, commanding tho dopondants and ininions with an iron hand, for, the servants pard in orclinngo for service are subordinates, and she & blaso is a member of tho family? A proud spiut liko liors wall listen to nono but tho dootor silub, though thocruel in an aho 119 tiu kol to, l. 14 left her and she reduced to straightened orrowmstwens Try tho meek-looking woman sented not to hor Porhaps slio trould oboy. Hor child is suffering. Sho will ropaatoror and over again the history of the disease, for his sako, inoro than you 13882 * Hyderabad ·15 for Her only ansiety is cure for her boy There is nothing in the way of maternal affection, no shyness no falsa sense of digoits Approach you too, gentle fellow-student Why But kesitate, it is only a poor mother and a soffering child gentle ange', be geatler still Ihs fructure is tender and painful and erers movemºut at getting crepitations, sends a pong in the poor little coul And thou too well-meaning friend, have your turn, pain the boy so that 10 times to come, you may beal bags ye unborn Tale hun to the adjoining hall, where 1 number of little surgeons are engaged in learn lam rudiments of surgery and dressing cases, under the gure dance of able assistint in long forming apronz, looking more Hika Seart, thru men, who saem to sit on judgement on erning mortal: , ad gure hun in charge of the solitary nurse, who fits ia and out of liec Battle krogdo n, nyay from her kind On the table lies 1 bos, perhaps still in his toens all nervous, trembling froʻy lead to foot The scalpel 19 in one hand, and all the necessary 'otiour and sponges are ready It is only & puncture to be made, so trissal to the accustoined medical eye, yet the flash of the little blade is shooking to the late Dest student, be not boot sg on practising surgery. Look behind, the door 9 r16 ajar and there stands the Christian another, old and ranged in tattered bat, poor yet with a mother's heart Send her gently away and shut the door That is the only remedy In the spacious room opposita, the plıysici12 18 codigo sa giving learned clinics and differential diagnosis on patients Iging oa cots Some of them are serted on the long tooray benches, while others are squatting on the ground Wbo 29 man ·16 lle is thrt man prematu rely old, 31 emaciated and delirious with pain ? His suffering knows no bounds L'very libro and every tissue of the body seans to rise tir rebellion, and to him no rest is known, in whatever position the limbs nro placed Evo i the bare dusty floor sooms to him a loud of clown old and perhaps without i relation to him the fair world fyas never kind and he has had no aspirations still hat a struggle in hem! Never svas body moro in love with the spirit The soul, free as evor, feign would riso and cast anay tho clogs of the body, but that friend cannot bear tho soparı tion Wait dear oomrade, unmindful comiado over £o little. I and identified myself with thee so You and I wole ono Through theo I got the powars of thought and speucli, thou gavest gloss to my hair and glainour to iny oyos, and mado the blood run in my veins Will the aspiring soul, of finer nature, and meant for inore exalted destiny, stoop to listen It remains to be seen Is it typhoid colio, or dyscntry? To him all tho world 18 nothing, its attachinonts nothing Rest ana health, ho norer appreciated before, is all he wants All his iden, for the moment 15-let alone Poor dull og es, why aro they bent so, looking into tho vacanos, ura thoy busy with some sweet vision of the past, a contented honie, syife and child, a doting mother or Bister der or a loving friend that pass many a Joyful hour Vill they over hnow of thy fato and drop a tenc fur sympathy. Alad thought' Thou noyer ladst hind a homo, nor over did the bind relations exist It 13 of littlo solaco to thco, though perhaps a consolation to the dronnor Poor earthly inantle, threatened with dissolution Who would part thy hair and who would rap theo in delicate rammonts helped to ·auce 17 In, quite an another part of the department, are busy luamals <jainging cars and poses In a smaller chanıber, in I toont within a room, sits the skilled specialist, reminding one of the primite medicine man, or a magician, with a mirror suspended to his forelierd, a cauldron bubbling by lus sido, and all kinds of quaint, mysterious snstruments in the sluaga of forceps, speculuing, and bistouries in his hand. The lured light emanating from an electric bull, fixed up-side down to the wall opposite, gries the whole place a hallowed appear With the ud of these, he examines the ears and 11303 of those introduced to him, one by one, and grasps at tie secrets of those dach and difficult cavities There comes a omnu from lugl life She has lost her voice Perlaps, she has a weakness for music, and has been singing too long To her there is no groater calamity that can befall mankind She wants her vocal cords to be stretched, or the throat clenced rr 1 combina ton of both She is tired of aspirates, since hot throst has gone wrong She can pronounce nothing without them Gutterals are an impossibility to her There comes another who has something very errong with the ear. lTo is innocent of roce Bseet or rough Put as many forks 18 jou lihe, on h19 vertor occiput, or cinciput, he only shakes his hierd Dispue not, soon shall thy suditory apparatus bo made wholo, and thou shalt hear agala the music of the world Aut serrs later ag an esoperiance I gurguon, worhang at largo huspital or as an assistant doing humble but not less essential work, or in charge of an out of the way dispengary, whilo rcolining on the then accustomed ersy chair, at srenbide, after the day's labours are over, stray sisions of well tower.

·1090 bored sceties, the old famılur fnoes, hind mastors, and faithful fellor students that might have bean friends--the delicious rocollections of the past, shall pass across tho field of momory, between the whuifs of the soothing cigar, and shall seem to go back through years and act again, and amongst them, thou throo yours-old sage looking Shanti, intelligout boyond thy age, thoughtful and calm, shalt not be forgotten Poor little mord, thou must have gone to thy luno in tlie horso carriago, as thou 8 ) oft hast said and thou must have bought pera for the pico given thoe so long ago Tho noighbouring boy will no longer malo thee miserable by throatening to out npay thy And thou Ahmad the cripplo rieketty boy with a fracture in ovory limb, over trod up, and contined to bed, ovor happy with thy pranks, toy prano, and the many coloured rosary, with every bead of vluch chou prously reported the kalıma, "Thoro 18 no God but God, and Mohammad is lus pro pliet," shalt over asfalt on the horizon of momory, rondly to step in, to encourage and to solace during the hours of do: pondency Dost thou not feel, liko other restless chuldron, inclined to go out into the sunshine and the light Thoy eny free as a bird Is the caged bird happy? Perhaps it 18 The mind seamod to choago and wander to that kingdom of brbios, the maternity ward, whore there aro babics ovory where babios of all descriptions and varioties-bibios smiling and playful--babros sour fnced and naughty, rosy babies, dock babies, mild babios frotful and pugnacious babios, so divergont Tho nursing staff must be sory cleier, not to mix them up and to give tho right baby to tło right mother. Why can't peoplo orclungo thoir ugly babies for protty ones ? yet 80 gunilar ·19 Here is the sploadıd opportunity to make that fortunate mig take And love alike they all loob, in their httle proportione, perbaps of their innocence and similar thought or no thought. Born side by side, how different rould be their destudies. There screams the sturdy fallow strong of mascles Tears later, perhaps thou shalt stand and great by the ragjag forge hammering away or inouldug some gloving piece of iron, in an extensive factory, or & Frayside emithy. Thou shalt not find the world so pleasent then, as on the farm lap of thy mother And thou little girle, still fresla to the world, so red and pretty, shall ta days to come, b3 1 charming mud, without a rival in thy kumble company If the fales yeto kind, thoa might have been bord, & ENJO of the proudest houee and hounured the hills of the trealthy and the great Bat perhaps, to pride and sunity unknown thou art best in thy present Bunpl city. Some rude and humble server unable to appre ciate the personalsts may be thy male and be thankful to God to find the good and devoted And $0 28 the lotus lily contect with the kreet companionship of the black buzzing clowsy beetle. And why not? It is $0 devotel and so sACTI ficiog, to be lost in the very streetness of the enchanting flower, so Torgetful of self and all but the only friend, 6Q couscious that when the rays of the large getting sun, berelt of their ratinth fall aslant on thdelicate petals, it finds itself in a living tomb, 11 dia a delicious death Suddenly all has tkniebed, and there stands tha smailing and the nodding maid, still in the freshnag, of girlbod welt It is I who first recessed thes into the rurld I stabbed the ests and cleaped the ting mouth, and y* T25 (ny sinart slap Yo: I know you ·20 that made thee drny thy first breath Thy chooks pro not go rosy, nor thy hands so delicate, nor is there thnt smile. Hast thou boon happy during the lapise of yeirs ? Has thou been brought up well or ill? Suddenly she seemed to changa and draw back, and as she ratreated furthor in the distanco, and grew fainter and frinter, shio seeinod t) say "I was not born at thy hands nor was I born at all; the babes born with thy, aid shall nover come across thee, and I sluill wait on tho borderland of existonce till eternity, a picture of thy fancy, bofore I have a life and a name." Suddonly I woke up, to find my gluin partuer by ny sido alrendy at his books, wondering why I slumberod Into. It was only a drorm, it transiont liſe within a life, a trick of tho mind.

·Thoughts and Recollections. MEDICINE for thee? So hare the fates decided. There mas some pain at the first parting from thro deir home, and tho fajnilinr surrounilingas of chikkeord: yet it was strangely inicexl with banyant hopes, the thoughts of life to come, ad Naroars to ba gunel Frien is shed him well, relations are happy, and fond parents blessed him, "Dear boy be safe and roll, let pothing troable thee" It is fivo geurs since, an appreciable period in a man's life Those ho vere vid and infirm we left the world one by one, during this short lapso of years hule others who rere hale and hearty resr beards Filtery and grey The dear friends tlint were left behind, aro scattered and hall forgotten, giring one an impression of utter loneliness And those of the devoted souls that remain, and the new (treods that are acquired, kellar associates in studies, and hind acquaintances. Pre on tus point of departing, each to his destaat home, or to ner fields of life, to fit himself to new surroundogs and te over Agaia. Hoir ott hare we not met, and lased, and loucherl and talked in the neser to be forgotten unpretentious No. 53, 2}<l get it lias had no qualification of its own. Though it overlooked the garden, there was nerer A shiff of breeze, vor did its occupante ever seord to Icel the pant of Any, for the simple ceason that they passed the rooi popular and fregeegled of the rooms in the college batel ·20 that made thee drary thy first breath Thy charks aro unt 99 rosy, nor thy hands so delicate, nor is there that smile Hast thou boon happy during the lapse of yours ? Has thou been brought up spell or ill? Suddenly sho seomod to changa and draw broh, and as she rotronted further in the distance, and grew taunter and farntor, sho soo nod to say "I was not born at thy hands por was I born at all, the babes born with thy, and shall nos or como across thee, and I shall wait on thd borderland of existonce till otornity, a picture of thy foncs, before I have a life and a name" Suddenly I solo up, to und my gluin partner by my sido already at his books, wonderin; why I slunberad Into It was only dream, a transiont lift withm n life, a trick of tho mind ·93 They talked about things they kner, they talkel about things they did not know Some ant on the chairs, others rolled themselves on the only cot, paved with cardboard, and hard enough to pain all the bony prominences of the bick, again others, when the available accomodation was filled up, installed themselves on the bores, and talked and talked, till their eyes grew hazy and dim with sleep It hid a strange attraction Begiles this, it was a veritable guest house People cimo from the North and South, and Cast, and Yest and ot all 80990n3, and were recorvadith ortendel arms Thogo that had no pretentions to be friends or relations, brought letters of intcodaction, and were equally well receive. There used to frequent, a young Christina bay, hilf plulosaphia, hall mystic, who told the fortunes of all present, rat their palms, Ecrutinized every line and every crazso, uttered the same ox pressions, with a solemn shake of the hen i and said the game thing, the salient events of life, yot strongely enough, all went Silised There came another who epohe in enigmas full of sarcasin and satiro, and yet another sometimes, innocent and thoughtless rarely able to utter & word Even the ter boy cime, and though his lorses had strange func es, getting diminished in voluino at one tring and coming back to their original dimensionsat another, an l the tor caps grilually aut tractel in size in some mysterious way, he eased our craving stomnchs The harps stated fat on lura guns, but he satisfied Out yants Ani tliou, little friend, so fond, and yet so con. Buderate, stoppel in from wherever thou happens to be, whether it 973 tho grım dissection hall or the soleinn college cleg Ilow oft five ye not anjoged thy innocent childhiba ing like stady was unknown, though 80126 protal), 4 22.

·22 & their time in othors' room It boasted of no furnituro, bet yond old tables awhirardly placed, a ciuplo of chairs, with a carpet, or z folded guilt for a cushion, an old stnut umbrella that belonged to the last generation, and was found a legacs, when the room was first acquire), volume of Robert Brown ing, stray novels, old magazinos and musty journals, some text books on anatomy, physiology, and inedicine, all pollo mell, with a bono or two, or a shull peoping here and there The shelves word loaded with bottles, glait and small, contain ing strange liquids, c spies of lam ct and Robinson Crusoe, old Articles, orst offlints and discirle] bolos, retained for the inoro love of association The walls were adornod with pic. tures attached different lovols, tho biggest of not more than cabinet size Its to accupants More equally opposed in character One way full of jilo, and ambitious dreaming already of an 2 S tho distant future, the other las fru nblo retiring, and osntonted, one was crceless, and optimistis, the other thoughtful. Oao fund for 18 inotto 'Re nemher,' the oth 3 Tornet,' words that were boldly written on the walls in frynt of their study tables On & lamp, the wick of which seldorn knep the famo, 19NA stuch a bit of paper on which was written in bluo and red "Please obsecro silence", a rulo that yis seldom follorod A light as a rarity, and every night there darkness provarlod Though the spacious hall bazi la at it is brilliantly lighto with cleatricity When asked the reason, they said, “Thoro 18, always darkness beside the light Lson jt »s whisperod , thint thoy ato in darkness Though medost and simplo, tlogo came to it that had 1 york1033 for tothing They crino in the day, they came in the night and talked and drec09591 in ·on And your the unfortuunta distende stomach came Joven to its normal It is not size, only to be filled orer agala a fer hours later loan that thou art gose, and sya miss the already and you imperious friend, boru to rule lihed, and deliked alle set in soul sincere, hire also left os oals to meet oft and You shall fourish and command wherever you bo, be it a humble, out of the mis country diepuasary, or a large basy hospital, with a train of staff to serre You could command, and yet be bend you could rule anl, set obey friend, the simple and chatty seen at the Tarde, seen at the out patient s, boldly and unrelentragis questioding the surgeon or the physician in time and out of time, beginning with tubscculosis and eading in 7 liter abcess, till me, tired of standing, were ready to collaps, has also left us. You had ndus other co up 10102», devotel and sincere, the plain, atheletic & the gran laconic B, mtelligent aou thoughtfal and tho goud ro nantic C, simple, and soft hearted, who could adinice a heroic dead, ard appreciate & sacrifice And you 'bright-eyed' - pulsive, and child like, Fet bolil, aad studious, with a good will for all, shall leare Q3 SV3 Thou wert a deligeat student, and w times to come, thou shalt heel inanç a sulfurer sith thy skill and kindly ay mpithy Thou hulst & purpose То gain Inowledge AS thy aim and thou hast succeeded well who walked abont careless, aad usconcerned People called thpe mad but thoj rect 2001. Oft hare te caught the perc'iel 07 a wall, gating on the deep blue sea of the ever changing clouds on the distant horizon, and Who can forget ·24 tended to read, the average progross being a line an hour, Writing materials, ink, paper, pen, and pencil, were raco coinmodition, and those who wished to syrite, begged, borcomred, robbed, or stole, or went to others' rooms for the purpose. It was also a general post office. the lotfors being received from all parts of the world, not only for those who frequentod it, but as well for those who livod outside. No. X is brilliantly lighted and there the cards go round, and thoro inovo Kings and Queens on the chess board and in No Y thore is brilliant company with many & strain of music, yet all come to modest No. 53. Who can forgot it? In its simple surroundings many A dream has been doormt, till the lines Viniglion from tha pago of the book, and it begon to reflect the very thoughts of the dreamer. There are imprintod thoughts of joy and hope, melancholy and sorrow. Sometimes it was honoured by Mr.- occupied No. 2. That only happened, when thero was some thing to eat. He was the best friend so had Tall, and fat and studious in proportion, ho looked a Gulliver amongst the Lilliputians With all that ho hid the mind of a child. His only weakness was eating to which he never said 'No'. IIo nevor waited to bo asked. Ho ate the best of food. He ate the worst of food. He lived to eat. When ho foll to it, ho ato and nte, and volumes of rico disappeared before him, and broad and curry and all into the bargain, and when he could cat no moro, ho used wator at intervals to wash all down the throat. Then there dovelopeil r tumour in the epigastric region which coso slowly to tho utmost dimensions. It roquirat li jurs of rolling in bod. beloro • The most honourable member of the Timbueloo Syndicate .. who ·The Evolution of a Bledico T vas a warm night in May, when everything was as stil as it could be and the air seemed ag if suspended that I got up with a jerk The mosquitoes were entertaining me, unrequested, with their unpleasant music, and there was au occasional bry of a stray dinbey in the adjoining folds or the sudden bark of the pariah dog in the dye lanes Finding sleep nupossible, I fell into a reverie thought following thought till the association of ideas led me to a review of my own life I, Iaisc Noodleton, nor by grace of God, a successful medical man, bave little recollection beyond the nge of 3 T 4, when I found myself a self wiled brat crying as much as I was capable of, es en la tho very triumph that other people yielded to my stubborn will and tried to coas me to be plent When I came of learning oge a great ceremony was performed, of which I was the hero and considered myself happy, when I found myself master of a rell polished bløte enclosed on a smooth dealmood frame and a little sell bound book with numexous ſunny pictures, and articles which to me appealed more as play things Bat ti is jog was of short duration, as I was svon forced to send the unfamiliar though pleasantly high sounding English language sn <re form of alphu bets and write in ancther The thing plich troulled ne most was ils un phonetic character, I well sen o ber 1 on 1 taxed the patience ·laughed and chattered with thee, and when we turned back thou wert gone Perhape our foolish talk disturbed thy solitude, and quiet meditation "floree'er i be, il scems lo ng 'lis only noble to be good And hearts are inore than coro tels, snel suinple fuith than Jorman blood To thos life was a dream unronl, and its ovents, the worry and tho woe on which people wasto imonse energy, of 110 con sequence. And you fellow student, modest, retiring, and ever respected, thy thoughts were noblo, and thy life subluno Thou wort always hind, so gontle, and 80 mort no turmoils of lifo shall not disturb thy penco We may not rerch thoso exalted heighte, yet we can aspire and imitate. Thou yort abovo differences Thou shalt heal and thou shalt sooth And Dr www ---18 niso no longer with us nosa Ho was only an noquaintance, honoured, and respectou He was a born genius proficient in evory branch of modicno, ono who loved the art for its sako Ho vas & nerfect inan, modest, L.2010, and unprotending, Groster honours and higher degroes wait for thoe in the lands boyond the waves And so was R meek and gentle from the ersten placas He sas a gentleman, in thought and word and decd Thus within the poriod of five years in the indst of work and play, wore friendships formed gained and lost combina tions, and syndicates mado, to bo dissolved soon or lato, ali so drorgo in thought, tomperament, idons and inclinations, yot in reality one, and the same tho oxpression of the gamo creation, ith the same good perineating all What romaina is but a inomory to be cherishiod, whorc-010r wo be, tho thong hts of old familiar faces.

·29 and years aftery iris I found hun a furainan, passing rich with forty rapes a inonth I also cianot forget hor ve ato raw guiras to indigestion, and green unripe mangoes to the blantlar of our teeth, and how our mouths catered to seo clusters of cocoanuts hanging from the stately trees, we being too short to pluch them, and traiteu till some worthy precoci vus la] scaled the slender stem trambling and with fear at heart the prospect of the pleasure of cating the juicy kernel lexhing him on and threr dora as unang as he conld Who does then, that one, rather a shy little boy, among 80 in any forward and imischluf wushing youngsters was destino for medicine? Or College and its life little need he said beyond its stataly building its high traditions, extensive play grounds and a magnificaut library of which unfortunately the only sectiou I male use of mis novels It was also the time of making suma lasting friendships and if areaming Thus literuture developed ing sentiment, and imaginatiou and his tory iny fancy, qualities quite uofit for the matter of fact, practıcıl medical man Yet I was destined to be one. Fatug mere already scheming and were busy bringing about circumstances which prerented my aspiring soul from euteuing a thouse 04 and 10 other walks of lifo I struggled hard, but they rere talentless So in due course I Tag enroll ed as an iustiate in the noble art of healing The first feelings were ol deep dejection, when I found myself one of a huge number of students, 19 sacious ag ate tha nationalities in India, aeite on the old gallery embroided with generations of curred 1181eld initials of those who bad gore out as ·28 of my early toaohor, by persistingly pronounoughly bat, cat,sat , and bul, but , D t, prit In due time, I was sent to a large public school, whore I played more with the other young lopsfuls, and studior littlo The Head laster sug & bg black man, u vory prototyno of Mnster Boyer of Christ's Hospital who loved to exorciso 2118 cans and relishod tho smack it gave on our poor thLubbiog flesh. I remember of many a bluish pink bune on iny hands and dorsal regions is a rosult of this noteraty His entry in the class room with a frown on lustice Yilb a bad nugury for the rest of the day Thungs wore worso vhen lie took into lus head to use the knob ond instead of the tail, ospecially whon at doscended on the posterior sspect of the metaourpala But with all his discipline and sovority, a kind heart throbbod in 1113 bulky uncouth framo, and I loved hun and his crno lor tho gentle gooduoss inherent in luun And kind were somo of tho fellow boys I wall remember that once while the othcı boys were being caued for not bringing home souh, and I WBA treinbling at the prospect of a similar trentmont, boing in the samo prediorment, that an older and a poorer boy gavo ma his to pass for mine, and offered to receive tho severo outs from the largo muscular hand that dorit thon l'ur 1 moment there was a struggle, sharp and heen, and a priching of conscience, and to my shamn, it resulted in my gotting the marbs and his the caning Tjica tho birch was raisod in the air and twice it fell with a slapping sound and when I Joohed bach, I found him kamnly trying to stillo pin by clutching at the landherchef This was my first experienco of youthful sacrifice Lator on lio did not scoin to do so roll, ·31 To us juniors life was rather pleasant Whilst the stu dents going up for the examination spent their ting 10 dissecting away as fast as they could, in cramming Anatomy, getting by rote osteology and trying rainly to fit in their brains the innumerable sections, simple, complex, and com pound, ours was a playing holiday. We jested, laughed and talled, quite oblivious of a similar fate in store for us not long afterwards Thus the direction dragged on slowly, forgetting on "lie morrow what yo read the day previous 'To anabe matters volse we had only 1 pair of forceps and scalpel between us both, carefully preserved in a piper spectacle cases bought for a trifle in the neighbourhood, Hence it needs must be sharpened every day Being I doubt whether to carry the &calpel on the oily stane with the edgo forward or the bach, I looked to others how they sharpened thcirs Observing them employing all kinds of methods, some carrying at one way or the other, and others round and round, I followed a ompromise of all methods and brought tho instrument blanter than when I took it to sharpen Besides my partner used one way and I the other for the same instrument Thús day in, day out we unconsciously superposod circles, ollipses, prrabolas and every conceivable variety of conic sections, on the greasy surface of the stone and it grew forse and works daily, till it could hardly cut a fisem or membrane Tlus ve vorhed under difliculties, wliat pith an unwilling. versatile partner rer iy to jump at the slightest incident in our norghbourhool, and finding gossip pleasanter than desertion, blunt scalpel, a not unoften niszlaced forceps, dessing us to asa the biology one as a substituto, tho part dried up or stin ·80 fullfledged inedical men in times gone by, with half a dozen sad looking girls in the front row, and the professor delivering what was to me a very uninteresting lecture in his clorr vell inodulated voice It was only of amoba that he talked and who coul I take an interest in an animalcule we novor 81W In the second year life seemed pleasanter. It was the time when my fellow-students liad abundant leisuro and ns A consequence, crystallised themselves, into distinot forms, in. wardly and outwardly Somno dazzlod with the pretty city of Bombay gave themselves up to shows and entertainments and changed their homely apparel for more up to-dato dross, while others adorned thomsolves in the most fashionablo costumes putting on collars and ties of the most delicato shades of colours and loved to strut about in society. Others, more firm of purpose, sat nt the foot of tho goddess Athone and docorated her crown with laurols, in the shape of prizes and scholarships gained with immonse labour. A fourth group added other activities in the shapo of sentinent, pootry and tho like aesthetics and read and studiod and trok interest in everything and anything but their own proper work. Th10 and looking girls began to show signs of life and grein precocious so much so that they competed with tho most hard working and intelligent amongst us. Thon thoro was tho excitement of the dissection hall, which proved the greitost bother by and by. All practical classes have their fised and linnited time, but this none. Work in tho morning, fork in the afternoon and work whenoser thoro happened to bo no lecture.

·33 The most interesting people, I had to deal with, were the hernals.' They hare the lnsch of controualls giring hopes and at the time time disappointing you You cant & tray or something He rould most submissitely bois down his bead and take it to clera, and phila all the time you are waiting for it he has giren it to some one else At a second call be mali pretend to run and go about his business mith pernaps the same result, or tempomrily hide himself some- There Thus chagrined, you derise inethods to taide lum and the only one you fiod feasible is buksh.sk They all havo a common weakness for it To his credit, let it be said, that he is honest in his request He tries not to enlist your sy rapathy w a tale of hard time or of maintaining a wife and six children He puts on the blandest smile and asks you in the plerantest in annor s) nothing for te.. You Youla Luo surprised and ask, 'Why' it is a very modest request indeed" sul so it would be, but unfortunately while others take tea by capfule, he drinks by pintfuls He has a conteinpt for your delicate good tor nothing china his dridhing apparatus is the tinpot. So my young friends, if you have to wait for half an hour for a fire annutes case, for want of a tray or screen, or hare an extensire burn case, and find the hamal Bulby treo dolo oat buecheesh It is the 'open sesame which unt only unlochs harulen treisarw but even opens the heart of the hamal It is no gol struggling against fate inust and it is better to give with a good grace An important element formed, the doll like beings robed 10 Winte uplo smiltls passal and repassad in their work and • Wort Lectua is intended the passage be ntten bemorously Give you ·32 king as a rosult of louig nogloct, and abovo all my own rebellious nature which, though fuiyn would have knowledge despised labour. Thus tiine prssod on and ono day I found myself working at the hospital, a senior student. There was another ganorul motamorphosis among iny classmates. Alost of thom tried to look smarter. Those keen on learning grow insusceptiblo to húman sensibility; the sterner ainongst us becamo callous; the shy ones, bold; and the gentle, gentler still. Tho sad looking girls grow moro enthusiastic and hard working. The Kiling patients, the clatter of bowls and trays, tho murmur of swift passing boots, and the thud of porcussions lind onough excitement. But hero too I was destined to bunglo. At first the cases took too long. To us boginners there was soinutling or other wanting. Either the trays soarned too short, or the screens too few. A nocjssary instrumont wns wanting or tho cotton wool or gauze brought for the purpose turned out to be deficient. Or after rolling up a long bandago, to iny disgust the tail end was found upper most, necessitating another rolling. Then there was the difficulty of accustoming the ears to rales and cropitations, inoist and dry, and to thodiflorent shades of dullness and resonance. Sometimes the cardiac dullness seemed absent, thus rendering the patient heartless, & physiological impossibility, unless confined to tornporament or sentiment; and at others, varging in dimensions at ovory ner attempt. Then, I had to get accustomed to the high sounding hospital phraseology, as mackintosh, tray, ausculta. tion, vocal fromnetus etc, 18 well as to tho necessary monosyllables thanks and please, with which every request needs must bo ·The most interesting people, I hnd to deal with, were the bemals. They hare the knack of continually giving hopes and at the same time disappointing you Yu want a trav or comething He would post subm18313 C, bout down his bogd and tabe it to clerot, and while all the time you are At a second waiting for it he has given it to some one else call he will pretend to run and go about his business with perhaps the same result, or temporarily hide himself sorao There Thas cbagrined, sou derise methods to tame him and the only one you find feasible 19 bulshresk They all hato & cormon teskness for it To his credit, let it be said, that he is honest in his request He tries not to enlist your sympaths with a tala of und 179383 or of mountaining a urile and six children He puts on the blandest smile and ashe jou in the pleasantest in indar 8 ) nothing for tes You rould be surprised and ash,' 11 hy it is a very modest request indeal And so it would be, but anfortuoately while others take teu by copfuis, 'ao drinho by potfals He has a contempt for jour delicate good for nothiog china his drinking apparatus is the tinpot. So my young friends, if you have to wait for half an hour for a fire iniuutes cise, for tant of a tray of screen, or bave an extensire burn case, and God the hamal Bully tren doln out bucsheesh It is the 'open sesame' which ont only unlo bs bud len treasure bat eren opens the heart of the hamg) It is no gooi struggling agunst fute Gire jou must and it is better to give with a good grace soubortant eleinent formed, the doll like beings Tobad 115 wlute who smiltis pussed ind repasal s their rork ! • lote Bectua uutended the pasise be 13 snitten kimosously ·34 seemed to be the people of an unkn)wn race. These wero the nursing sisters. They seemed to understand ovory want and convenience of the patients and set right this or that, givo a touch here and thore with a nicaty known alone to women. What with thermometers, cloning, and ynshing, they seemed to cause the least inconvenience and trouble to the patient. O roman, in our hours of ease, Uncertain, coy, anıl haril to please, Ind iarrable as the shaile By the light quitering aspen maile, When pain and anguish ring the brow A ministering angel thou Sir Walter Scoll. The patients given in our change were of various tom. peraments, somo rofractory and others subinosivo. I know of a kind old nan, with a big white board and a pleasing face, who was full of sintlos even in his illnms3 I missed him when he died. A gentle soul like his could never know of ovil and inay it rost in peaco. Sicret rere thy joys, thy pace subline, ni thy enti ancel thoughts on regul On herglas I shall ne'er aspre. And in thy breast no passions rageil "O my saint trith the sınless eyes." Ono poor boy, not yet on tho wrong sido of toons, ignorant of the gravity of his case, playfully ropeated "doublo inurmur, double inurmur", words he had heard us pronounco 60 frequently Womon soernod inore rasigned to then foto and gatelul for the pains so tool for thom A young woman camo to get ·35 nl of inilaria, derelopol pulmonary tuberculosis and gror gad let and spectre tlun day by day Not & Tord of complaint Onc porn or of alarm at the approrchog death escaped her IUS I found the bed empty She tras succeeded by an old Jaslım komad, mith very winging 13 and rather a long tongue She tolled of her high Cunily of all th“ fierbs she used and the number of leerhº she applied to her painful knee, so much so as to malo nus-ultation an inpassibility The student in charge was nahel to sccept the blessings of the "'* Kuba ili and sle sent even to the extent of craching her boucles Against her temples + And who would forget little Italınıs the sweetest mad that erer brightened the ward with her prattle and her ready fit. Once when asked shy she was smiling she said pointing to the registrar, lam liuglung at that doctor sahib I hrte all the babas as they call me lungri (lame)' Poor girl, she is lost nører to be heard again, in the dirt and squallor of her Teiver horne Perhaps her mit and her gentle chat will not so readily appeal to an unfriendly mother in law and a fine-smelling wife-beating husband Another patient who attracted attention was a blind old toman who kang exquisitely "Allah Tum Lain gulli oae', - "Ol my God thich 'ape did you go by To think of God the initide Beloved ol a hely less from picked up in the strrets and playing beloved the lude and seeb, eser evading the batlleul seher in & inize of lanes was rather impresite "The Lady Lou made a plat to go to Blecc3 TEA** 200g Muazo men of wbuzzles We for a period ·36 So passed my life at the great college of modicine whero I ncquired knowledge in the noblest of tho sciences and ralked the wards muny a year. There also I drely my experienco of human ills and infirmity and got an insight into human nature, possible alone in a hospital and gainot by tendoc sympathy.

·Struggle for Existence.
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Itill the patter keel the slai
forlal tehere te spenst deres
Tlsther must the cheels okey"
per case for you It is an interesting case of heart
diseise It may be put up for the nert clinics."
So resounded the words of the registrar in
charge of the Wards And in semi-darkness of
the extreme corner of the wards, I found him,
propped up suffering from intenso dyspnea and cough. He
1689 in the hoy-day of youth, plump and sell nourished, and
sco ned to hava geen better days, za hug life He answered
the asarl questions, quite simply and intelligently, end
I was forming quite good hopes of getting "V"* against
my name on the next clinics day
“Sır, give me relief, and I skin!I tell
you every detail
of my trouble It is for five months Do you think I shall
be cured? I have sntense pain and tenderness, all over the
baly, a troublesome cough, and blood in the sputum
how red its
See
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or relatives I have only a mother somewhere in the coun
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• Thugbet aprtoc al on that can be obtained fer a good bustory of a case
nga duration and progress of the disewe

·38 “Not very long, Sir; it started only n four months ago, and twice was I admitted in tho jnil liospital, which garo me little relief." A jail liospital! Instinotivo!y I looked up towards tha window, only to find the "Blue bottle" on guird, lost the bufferer should run away froin the justice of man. A jrill what crimo could he gommit—tho apparently simplo inani with the mind of a child. Suroly nature could not be so deceiving. Was it a temporary inulness, story ition, or necessity, or bad compony, or what is inoro likely, the folly of a moment ? A strong curiosity and impulso to inquiro into the causos! But conscience rebolled against it. lIo is r sufferer, and a repentant in the clutches of disoaso and has perhaps a fow lays to live. To err is human, why inquiro ? Then is it lho sufforing and prin thnt hi is brought out all tho good thnt is in hiin? If so, it is porlinps a blossing. Nost dry we approached him by ones or turns, and ho surrendorod to our repeatod auscultations, without a protost, without a murmur, and only replied to the quostion as to liis health-"I am not woll." More notes written, changed, and correctod, in consul. tation with fellow.students with bottor powers of porcoption, feol, and judginont Thero is a murinur conducted into the axilla, and another down the stornum; what door lio ciro for them? He wants a curo. "V" perhaps is sura Nori day-ansculintel tho hoart. The murmurs hivo dignppeirad; it is ortromely irregular. His end parlip3, is draving nºrr.

·39 21 "Do 31 There is no "How are yon, Sir?" I am not well improrament These are me medicine, thirteon times a day, and it is no good, I feel guldy anil merk Crorstuing seems to reel round me I feel I have no hopes O God! I Get can't ent In the jui! hospital I used to get halte me some The sepoy will bring it I have no money not be disherstoned You shall get better Yet another day the simo questions "Look Sır, in the spittoon 'There 19 blood --blood every hero The wliola aight I have coughed' Tha pot fis full of blood and its alanting murgias coloured with big scarlet patches The end 13 certain, and that too soon Why afrnd of it? Is it the animal instinct to livel-orling he joy's still left in life? He has only a innther Dues she hnov of his fato in the hands í man and Gul? Is he to be told the truth, and the few hours he is destined to lure made bitter for him? Or you tell an untruth that he is going to be better, when his earthly frame is no longer fit for the spirit Whit problema in ethice! Consult conscience That is the only solution . Tell that which would comfort im in his short cirthis life and take the kin on thy bend, not to Justify it after but to suffer In a sacrifice Hopez of. V- vanished in the extreme sympathir for the man in the throes of dertli It says That evening ruie taking round in the ward, there 1928 n cry from behind the screen-Sis, Sir, Sır There was soma hutry, and solbc sorry and some distracting thought We shall ga' on the morrox That W19 nyt destinal No ·40 last comfort you can give. A neighbouring pitiont said, ho passed away nt 4 o'olock froin the jusvice of man to a higher tribunal a better repenting soul, with all that was best in it well evolved. The next inorning was damp and cold The accustomed corner was empty. The nurse walked as usual taking temperatures and counting pulse and reapirations, the studionts flocked from cot to cot, chatterod, Inuglied, and walked nway without a thought, without a care, that some ono yet in his youth repented, struggled for life, the bittar ust strugglo known to man, and dici.

·The Zoo Club, 1 (In the lusher 127) T HE dedicher, with long years of association and travltion, have always, consciously or unconsciously, formed themselres into groups and co nbinations, acuvrhng to their tistes, sonti, ments, and inclinations where they lived, and talked, and storhed, and spent their spire hours away Such a one was the 2) Club Its members wera band by the strongest and the deepest of santimeots ---Siocarity. Thoy were mored by the highest of motives, and tried to improve thm trorld, though they thenseres fell considerably short of it. They tolhei of other people's zftirs, an) aeglected their own Though fires cigad in their breast, their heart was hind Thos rera a thrifty people. Perferring qurotity to quality, they patronisał the cheapest of restaurants and made the most of their monog's worth Thoagh alirays glad to accept an inritation, they invite i ang Syna to sare batter, nto bread goikeł la try, whilo others did away with that lux. ury oltozather, sons for the reason that it was harmful to their storich, others that it is against their principle. They were also acogstoned to take their pleasures lonely, and these ters of the suinplast kial, a pilk at the set-side, inhalia, the fresli brezza, as they callalat, and atteading cherp slins and Cigam 19 They spent the rest of their time in ·42 contemplating over tho orso and comfort of idlenoss, and oft did thoy say with half drooping eyes, "Deuth is the end of life, al rehy, Shoulil life all labour be, Tel us alone By Their head-quarters consisted of only 1 rooin, muoh smaller than the average, and thoy thought thomsolvos too humble to aspire for anything inoro. It was strangoly commodious and it soomed 18 if its dunensions imperooptıbly opindol and contractel accouding to the number of the Zoos present. Its contents wero of a unique hund, and con Bisted of a small wicker table with one of its logs wanting, purchinsod in tho good old days, which none could trnco, for the modest sumn of zupoo one, now used to accomolate a variety of articles, bones and skulls, and inany 1 tullet tluing, a sholf, tall and thun, standing ngainst the wall opposito, containing boobs necessary and unnecessary, a deck chair without bend, inclined at an angle of 30° to the ground, so fashıoned that none could reclino on it, much less sit, orcopt at tho extromo ond, and a huge bodstond, Inrgo and luxurious, and seemingly comfortable, but woc to the inan, unaccustomed to the ways of the Zoos, whocs or passed a single night on it, for at the midnight hour, it made such horcid screechos and ominous sounds at every turn of the unconscious sleopor as to sond hum bounding out of thn rooin irrospective whothou he knoched his head or knce in tho dirhess, for tho Zoos loved vareness and there it als y, provarle.] No annount of broinides or morphua would induce him to sleep agam and even if he slopt, ho suffer: 1 froin logriblo decains and ·13 ballel in sleep Crea the story raa that lio falled in sleep The deghbaar slept with terror in their hearts, sturting DoT and starting then to sea if a thief or a goblia was really proming about in the doll gloom Besides these, there was a small bos installed in come unimportiat place, which gave an exhaustible supp's of things 10 the way of stationery, rastruments de la come mysterious manner, and an old hat langiog on the res, sieral sizes larger than the biggest hes] amoagst the Zoos and intended by them to be ased on no excursion to the Canary Cirex, an ereat Thich dover seemed to arrive Не таn vеrу The Secretary is a short this man palo ad sallon, cxtremely sigorous ia mird, with his bar at right angles to the skin The fellow members called him “The glorious httle mra, and glorious he looked when he strutted out *t eventide, in hre chocolate suit, stick in hand, to the big lonely pleasures or to accept an insitation fond of killing cockroches and whenever he spred one, ho ran after it, he chaseł it, he tumbled table shelyo , chairs, bores anything and everythin; that cime in the way, formetimes he was on the huge bedieteid, sometimes below at as the poor creature ran for its life Sometimes he esught it and preserved it in a lottle carefully corded standig on the little richer table with one of its legs wanting, for enme fatare occasion at other times hilled it outright, ud then eat at the coard table, with a look of antı Yaction on his face very often along with a fellow ein ier, short and plump, Incoth and coard, who rhameleon lihe, at elity question shool bus besd zbyibmically up and down mod from side to ·side, then out came froin a black olongatod bng a number of tiny instcuments, keon and cruel, and soou tho poor little cockroach disappoared beforo thom. He was woll known at home as a gront hunter. He was also fond of the inail. He always expected letters without the least idea from whero thoy were likely to arrivo. Ho likod tlo postman, ho likod his bag, and the furnilinc uniform and in fact the wholo dopartmont. Amongst the airliest and tho inost proininont of tho Zoos was- --, He was the wit of tho club, 3 lion_at homo and a lamb in tho fiold. In socioty he was modest as a maid. Often lio was attackod with strange fits. Ho rolled his oyes, twitched his inusoles, and his lips inovod ono uvor tho othor in abject helplessness. To his horrified friends tho dingnosis was not unknown. It was a dose of castor oil. Ainongst the most respected was the philosopher Zoo, grown old in thought, tlouglı still young in years Ho avoided humanity and lived in. & dark subtorranoan pussage while the sinell of savoury ineats from the kitchens close by continually regalari his nose. Ho as the oraclo of the Zoos, and they consulted hun on overy point. [[o read their palms, oxainined their phrenology and told their fortunes, and when they went on oupeditions, blessol tliem. The Zoos thought hun noblo, lihud luum and called liom funk Mc.—as a now initiate. lſo tlu youngest and tho mielest of the Zoos. They said lio liad mistakon his profession. Ho loved literature and had inheritei a taste for moolt mics. A vumber of Zoos were always with him. Somo patronised him, and others liked hiin. The last but not the lost way ·45 His company the President. He as fur and he is fat He was also the high priest, and the Zoos bored to his will one and al} He was unknown abd yet well known His spirit prerailed eren in the ward, the theatre, anl the solemn college class He almis ment attended with his devotees had strange attraction and he often loved timely joke He lived with thein, gare to them hat vrag best in lum, loved his floch, and forgire their little fault And many a kolemn talk there used to be, 190 1980) a merry chat went round, as he presided at the little richer table truth one of the large tranling Such were some of the specimens of the Zoo club mt (In the 1 ensire hour ) It was just midnight, and the pale firmne cas barding low in the societ, that the pour Zoo tras roris orer & bulky vol The page was underlined here and there, with many a note on the marrin It was read, and re-read and read over Brain ard fet not understood, the fracture of the caricle Vain is the struggle Üſt the eyes hare bren pensive and dreamy between the lines, and oft hare they looked racant over tha pose of the book Is st the thought of the things Exal in the morning and set not assinulated, the typhoid. I-lapsing feier, or the sleping sickness? (11 lat & comforting came to the eses that have known no sleep for many wenty d352) or of the rains tached orer aquint and yet not under soal, Vyopia and its complications, read over and over again ard forgotten, the Saprenia nad Septiatnia already ·46 on funt in tho monoty Is it the prospect of fixing 11 tho ovor stuffed, overstrued inind, rows TOU8 of microscopes, and thor innuinberable specimens, the Anomia and the Tropanosomes, the Pleurisy and the Emphysoma? Or nro thoy the thoughts sad and punful,) longing of the distant land, boyond the hills and far away, of tho old familiar home ind hearth, whore perhaps the poor widowed mother waits for lug roturn, that she may toil no inors and rest her agou lunbs, of fond gay faces that used to laugh, and clint, and love, and are no more, or is it a little piece of dreaming, soft, and delicate, of childhoods thouglitless days, when many gnme and gambol used to bo, with frionds long forgotton in the old surroundings? Suduonly the foss bones on the littlo wacher tablo with one of its logs wanting, scomed to stır, and arrange themselves in full human torin, as the muscles expand, and tissues with pulsating vessels grow tharoon, and the whole smoothed over with soft glossy skin, and it scomed to say in voiceless accents *Months and yenrs ago, I lired and flourished and tooh the joys of hfe as ono fretted and bowed under heavy caro at life s ovory trial, and more theso many days To me all aro tho sano, Jite's joys and sorrow, its woos and its hopos Does it matter how I lived, in health and ronown, or want nnd oblivion? All come to the same, all are one, tho raging desires, tło softest sentiments, and the noblest feelings I was hale and handsome, a mother's pride, a friend 8 joy, and a wife's an rious caro, Bod gler to manhood and then to age, and though modest and lowly, aspired for life's comtorts its joys and caso, of you, um 110 ·klich eben gained seemed vereſt of charm and coased to pleasa Then carne trouble, want, and disense, Thich humbled pride Pants, and ambition, and trith that disappeared strife for gain and happiness, and I slowly died in a strange place forsaken and furirn And now as I see through the sightless Rochets, peeping 50 meebly from the little wicker table with We of its legs wanting, the saine mad burry, the same story repeated again, the same strenm of life running in the samo >> 4y though cutlected ariously through a thousand tints, and moving towards the saine goal the pale golden suu sceins to rest on yonder hill at dun, spreiding a thousaad rays, silvering the clouds near by, and coursing its path, at eventide. siohs into the western sår, large and red So gocs ou time, the day succeeding night, as it used to be when I walked the earth As is the life, so is the tune, ever the same Why be sad, well or ill, it is the same Look at the fellow Zoo Sooder, carelessly sleeping There 19 a smile on lus lips, and on bis faca no dark line of care All day he liad been hard at rock (le has walked the words stooped orer erery bed and listened to their dolefol tale judged their ailments, and has comforted then as much as he could Ho 119 soothed their grann, and encouraged them, when in despair dues ho want or care? The ran there on the corner Led, grey and old with berrd, white and iloying 119 'lessed him for, tho intolerillo culic relieved at once by i saporilic 1bo jon l'ersian priest in the corner opposite lips the same thuns comfort and attention inore eflicient than drugs and wishes hun prosperity in the days to come young Sikh b>, rolling between life and death, all of Tsplaud, jet strong What more The ·48 in faith, preferring death to cutting off his hair long and flowing, has been his anxious care, and he is happy to sco him rally round above danger. Ho has restored sight to the girl with the cataract and she sees the world again. All the patients love him, and pray with a sincority which comes alone of suffering They are sure he would be a healor, great and renowned, and bring sympathy and hoalth to many a God's creaturo He has cured not for the proises ho receives. nor felt for the ills that men may speak. He has done his duty, he has loved the profession without the mead. lle has lived. And thine will be the path, dreary and groy, with 110 rosy wreath of hope and joy. Thou shalt pass thy days, unknown and recognisod. Thou shalt not bu cared for in company, or desired in friendly circles, brilliant and gay. Unknown to name and fame, thy merit unappreciated, thou shalt heal the sick, and comfort man. Thoro lies tho aged man of soventy, grey and white, and has pochaps soon tho bost of days and is still afraid of death. Ho has passed three parts of his life and more and has still a desiro-to vod his youngest born, before he dies. There is another, a boy of twenty, young and handsome and afraid to die. Ho too has nood of thee. Even the little maids Asha and Sara, requiro thy attention, though playo girls they bo, destined to life-long bondage. They giggle and they laugh and find the hospital a blossing to the liouse that brought them up. sottled the ond beforo thou hadet a boing, it was to serve innnkind. That is the purpogo of thy lifo." Suddenly the flame became palor, flickered, and then For thoo, was

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·48 in faith, preforring death to cutting off his linir long and flowing, has boon his anxious care, and he is happy to soo him rally round above danger. Ho has restored sight to tho girl with the cataract and sho sees the world again. All tho pationts love him, and pray with a sincority thich comes alone of suffering Thoy aro suro ho would be a lienlor, gront and renowned, and bring sympathy and honith to many a God's crenturo He has cared not for tho proises bio rccoives. nor folt (or the ills that inen may speak. Ho has done his duty, he has loved the profession without tho mend. Ilc has lived. And thine will be the path, dreary and groy, with no rosy wreath of hope and joy. Thou shalt pass thy days, unknown and recognised. Thou shalt not bu cared for in company, or desired in friendly ciroles, brilliant and gay. Unknown to name and famo, thy morit unnpprcoiated, thou shalt heal the sick, and comfort man. Thore lies tho Aged man of soventy, groy and whito, and has porlops scon tho best of days and is still afraid of death. Ho has passed three parts of his life and moro and has still a desiro-to rod fis youngest born, before he dies. There is another, a boy of twenty, young and handsome and afraid to dio. Ho too has nood of thee. Even tho little maids Asha and Sara, require thy attention, though slave girls thoy bo, destined to life-long bondage. Thoy giggle nnd thoy laugh and find tho hospital a blossing to tho house that brought them up. For tlico, vos settled tho ond before thou hadst a boing, it was to serve inankind. That is the purpose of thy life." Suddenly the flamo becaina palor, flickered, and then ·31 fatal 13 rary often got rid off but the other ons is always persistent and inevitable By malıcıne life may be prolongerl, Drath will see the cortor too TF Shakespeare It mis le farved off by our efforts and with the aid of for ecrance but ultunately come it mast to all without dis tin.tron whatsoever Death . Berel llale on all alle il falls, V master clat's the rink or ser or age, The lorely lemn, ile youth, the lurmul sine, ('p mi ben coi rarh mlorn th, mansive calle Clairapa An attempt to each out the concptio: isith which humº. nity as a whole ind in lasi lually not only rogirds but fools about darth what Ictually ia its presence is an interesting study Ilan, rith the oroption of the high min.lat tes, naturalis rogurds death ar eunsthing to be fairal and ab horre! They fiat 13 alingst wholly due to the absolats ignorance of one s state after death and the vague ideas con. ceraing it though the prospect of prin, thought to be attendint on such a ching, also plays a pact 1R 16 and things to ba left bzhini, unbit:07 unsttana, and the daties leſt un 11, for'n great factors which go to nagment thọ cho dts f1s The or linus, man thinks that he is boca to me, and the world though the majority of its good things party he or not, is to him tur. , etsily adapts himself to the Lore of persons ·À Psycological Analysis. There is a riaper u hose name is Death, And icho ruith his sickle Icen, licape the beardel yrain at a breath, And the florers that gror betreen. Loircil. THE all important event, that must occur to thint wonderful combination of the machino and the director, called man, and in fact to all living physicnl notivity, is termed Death Why it is generally representod as a human skoloton with largo vampiro like wings, and a scythe in one of its hands, and not as a blessed angel robed in white, I knosy not! Porhaps the general fenr with which it is regarded, is responsiblo for Buch a conception. The subject has, from time immemorial engrossed the attention of all, high or low, ignorant or thoughtful, sick or healthy, at ono timo or another, and ench has had his own conclusions on tho subject, according to his own capacities and leanings But with all the efforts of tho greatest thinkers in tho world, not ono stop moro is conclod beyond the fact that it is inovitablo and must occur to ono and all. Disease and death are tho two enemies against which all the meinbors of the medical profossion have to struggle with all the esporionco and knojledgo that is at their coinmund. The former which is a teinporary inconvenience whion not ·51 fits! 13 very often gat rid off, but the other one is always persistent and inevitable Bliri e life ma) le 1 rolonger? Death toll in the doctor too F Shakespeare It may bo warded off by our efforts and with the aid of Four cºncg but ultimately come it must to all without dis tination wintsoever Death slecel Ila le on all alike it falls I watter velat's the rink or set or age, The locel, burn, then yo ith, the lurmut sage, Or swel noos pachnikornil, mireastre calls I Chalrapa An attempt to seek out the conciption with which humn nity as a whole and a lovelually not only regards but feels zbyt dorth wii inluully in its presence is an interesting stads Van, with the excaption of the high mında i few, naturally regtis leath ag eo nothing to bu fazret and ab horrel This fact is almost wholly due to the absoluto ignorance of ono s state after derth and the vague idens con. carning it through the prospoct of pun, thought to b> attendant on such a change, also play 3 8 part in it and things to be left behin), ambitions unattained, and the duties loft un1,79, form spent factors which go to augment the ansarsıl fant T119 op ingrs, man thinks that he is bor? to liso, in i the world though the inajority of its gux things In his or not, 15 thun (31r Hs e19ıly adapts himself to the Love of persons ·52 sphere of life into which his lot is oast and tries to make the most of it, and therefore though however - suffering or foeling inconvipiences, he loathes to take a plunge into regions where the things good enough now may not be. To die, to sleep, To sleer perchance to dream; there is the rule; For in that death achat dreams may come, When ice hare suffled off this inortal coil. !!'. Shakespeare The animal instinct to live pervados him all through liſo, and baro existenco, nay oven existonco in pain is a happinoss and an immense relief to many a inan, if the bare shadowing calamity is warded oft'. The dependence on the will of Providence and on all that is inevitable, a firm belief in life after death the ideas of Heaven and Hell, or the entire resignation to the Inwe of Karma, are the several factors which go to make the con ception of death more or less terrible Among most people the surroundings of the dead and the ceremonies that follow have quito a depressing and unpleasant feeling of sorrow on all that tako port it, or como across them. Some author has said, "Wo shoir it (respect) with black foathers and bluck dresses and black hornidrios. We show it by costly obolisks and sculptures of sorrow. a stor it by frightful gratings and vaults and lids of dismal stone." Again ask the feelings of x young Hindu lady who sees the broken bangles of her widotrod sistor, her This austero dress, and the cost of the ceremonios of woo. all inakes her think of death soinathing vory terrible ind :o) ·63 Bat when through all its fears, the ultimato ond ap proaches and the mortal being is in the throes of death, who cun conceive the state of his inind, his thoughts, his thirge, things that might have boon, and the things that could bo undone His hopes and lus fears, his faith and its conge quences, who can know That is the timo when all tho boyday of youth the vigour of body, and in some, of mind is gono Thon the mind 19 gerana and bont more on jonoc and thero soeng to hun no inore object sa life Ha 18 free from the grasp of passions and intellectual pursuits The Blumas of rage are extinguished and the hatre i appoased What romains 1% only angelo moty The slightost kindness And allection from others have an immense effoot on him. In fact he approaistos all that we good, and serene and per hape the fear of death, so long entertained, leaves him when sotually dying All the denso destros having been purgod away from the weak, Inoapıllo frame, his mind suma on immortality spiciluality and the like and in the case of uncultured many, it calınly restgaa itself to the inevitablo, or st lingers on somo dear ono to be left behind. perhaps uncarod for But what of th048 who are around the departing man Is their cash in any way less terrible? Perhaps not Let us in lunoy, croito such a scono of death of a middle class lady with all around that are neir anl dans to her laly, uns to als in vür pity gues inoat 19 dynng say of child birtis She lies on her poſt lond, the prelicted hour ever drawing A low inota lours and she would be separated at least The young ·52 sphere of lifo into which his lot is cast and tries to make the most of it, and therefore though houpaver « sufforing or feeling inconviniences, lio loathes to tako a plunge into regions where the things good enough novy may not bo. To die, lo sleep, To sleep perchance to dream; there is the ruil; for in that dealk chat dreams may come, I'hen tre late sufleil of this mortal coil, Il'. Shahespeare. The animal instinct to live porvados him all through lifo, and bare oxistenco, nay even existonco in pain is a happinoss and an immenso rolief to many & inan, if the baro shadowing calamity is warded off. The dependence on the will of Providonce and on all that is inevitablo, a firm belief in lifo after donth the idons of Heavon and Hell, or the entire resignation to the laws of Karma, are tho several factors which go to make tho con. ception of death more or less terrible Among most people tho surroundings of the dead and the coreinonies that follow havo quite a dopressing and unplensont feeling of sorroly on all thnt talo part in, or como across them. Some author has said, “We slow it (respect) with black feathers and black drested and black heraldrics. We show it by costly obelishs and sculptures of sorrow. We show it by frightful gintings and vnults and lids of dismal stono." Again ask thio foolings of a young Hindu lady who sees the broken bangles of her vidoved sister, her This austero dcoss, and the rest of the ceromonies of woc. all inakes lor think of death soinething yory terrible indioj ·35 Jeans dilsst the coul departs from the mortal frame and thu inf 18 cocinple as to pars almo t unnoticed ter ter llojes lle! Charlessorkjes lalil Iletin yhtler dilen ile slept And thate herstele The itesien is ren.oved from those around her and all fie in their og Tay core or ltee, she escites a sigh the forcer brand & regret troin the neighlours Tho glect 1 the fries of the basland and the parent They of lack from youth onwards They think of her sy right Fe*s of youth, the fait cheeks and full eyes of chuldhood frun the sigorousness of fire and trents to tlie hollowaces id dead Faleness The hustand, if a loring ore, is distract id cat of aird ard to him at times the incident seeros stdlr posible She seems to lire agua, as of old, happy ad joslul, sporting iu ber old ways He loves to be with :{r *gain, if only in mind, and rot unoften wakes up with a back to the grim reality. Forzar ikel Janeilal Toms Tos con rise th the door The long accustomed mall, the familiar window, the chamber and the very articles ate precious relics or constant tengoders to a To tricods and servante feel the lose, admire her utt airrrcnts and segret ter carls death only to forget tha 11 cident pote or less in their various walks of life Thug cloves the picture illustrating the ſelings that the great cbo Death nrcdaces on the dying and those interested in ·approntly for over and over from thus fine sportivo ourth with all her chirinn, it id all those who lovo lor, and to whom her welfare is 80 vory doll They ila around her in a circle wishing for a magical reciecy in thz very despair of lopes Aro not, at least to smo of them her last thoughts or importance ole she dies or becomes finally unconscious Who hnols Flint they inay be, ahnt uneup clol turn they talo, and what sentiments tly from one to nnother Yot the last thought-low to hnoir that? Wo con but only concu ture. Is it of tho child tht is forn, so dorr and yot so intal' Is it a loving husband soon to be loft behind for over or somo incident of a too short married life, or is it the purrants fic away to wlion perhaps she is the only child? Porhaps it inny be a long lost friend long forgotten Is it tho prospect of meeting some dend relative in the regions yet unknon Ordre her thoughts hervonu ild bund ciruless of all around Jlerc speculation is dumb and reason blind Tho people give her overy cire and she is the centre of thoir thoughts Thoy conse to think of anything but her Ile racheller lueitling to lieli, Jor lrathu , soit and lnie, de relire lreint the more sui kejt learn i 10 al no The former le The doctor and the nurse aro tliero tou his ronted solf possession and got is touched with no much brauts and such youth, while she, if tuli jous, commomis the departing spirit to the Lord for Whose sthu she is ongaged in the word of sacrifico 300 charity.

·35 At last the soul departs from the nortul frame and tho Muidu is 50 eluaple as to pass almost unnoticed Orrera llojes Blut r fears Uur fiats o ir lais belielmo Hello jller dye uwlen ole slept ini serin selca iz 1.1 The tension 18 temored from those around her and all grieve in their own ray more or lces, she cacites a agh from the passer by and a regret Irom the neighbours Tho deepest is the grief of the husband anel the parent They look Inch from youth onwards They think of her s rozlit liness of youth, the fair cheeks and full eyes of childhood.com from the viourousness of five and twenty to the hollowures and dead palences Thehusband, if a loving onc, 14 distract ed out of mrd and to him at times the incident ses 1538 hardly possiblo She seems to lose again, ar of old, happy and joyful, sporting in her old ways Ilc loses to y her again, if only in mind, and not unoften wakes ur shock to the brun reality their iorer rbe bi fancy!! oluli 17/0! Os coiture athil head The long accustomed walk, the fasniliar wow, the chuter and the very articles are precious relic ur cartut Temundets to h with a The frunds and ervante fuck the lost, admiru ir att auircuts and regret her cirly duath only to forget t!!! cident more or lces in their acous walks of lift Thus cionce the picture illustrating the Irlın : tliet this year, chinge Death produces on the dying, and thuc intr Bybest 113 bio unders ·51 apparontly for over and over from this fine sportivo ourth with all her charins, and all those who love lor, and to whom her welfare is so very doar. They ara around her in a circlo, wishing for a magical recovery in the very despoir of hopes. Are not, at least to some of them her last thoughts of importance oro klie dies or becomes finally unconscious ? Who knows whint they may be, whint unexpectedl turn they tako, and what sentiments fly from one to another. Yet thic last thought-how to knows that? Wo oin but only conjoc. ture. Is it of the child that is born, so dear and yot so fatol' Is it a loving husband soon to be loft behind for over or somo incident of a too short married lifo; or is it the parents for attray to whom perhaps she is the only child? Porlap; it inny be a long lost friend long forgotten Is it the prospect of meeting some dead relative in tho regions yot unknown? Or arc her thoughts hervenwird bound circless of all around Here speculation is dumb and reason blind Tho people give her overy care and she is thio contro of their thoughts. Thoy cease to think of anything but hor. Me rratulvillur breathin thro' the night, ller breathing soil anil lor, ale on herleret the care of nje, Kejt hearing to and fro 7. Ilont. The doctor and the nurse nro there too Tho forinou lios his wonted solf-possession and yot is touched with so much lyauty and such youth; while she, il religous, commonds the departing spirit to tlie Lord for Whoso sabe sho is ongaged in the work of sacrifico and charity,